HEllO

Taylor is bullying me because I didn't know that international meant the whole world. I thought, "inter" was within and "national" our nation soo... in our nation. IDK it made sense to me.

I had kava last night for the FIRST time ever.
It was amazing.
It makes you feel so comfortable.
Anywhere you sit, you can feel like you're in the MOST comfortable spot EVER.
And your mind is clear.
You feel like you've just had a massage for days.
It's comparable to a dose of valium, basically.
You're content with life.
When I'm on it and I think of the things I don't have, I feel okay with having what I have.
I know it sounds really cheesy and stupid because I'm like the least spiritual person ever, but I felt like that was the way I was supposed to feel. Like, how everyone says, "Don't WANT anything, be happy with who you are and such." That's how I felt. I felt like everything is okay and everything will work itself out. LOL I felt like Ghandi. Maybe not. But still, I felt good.

I took some before I went to sleep and had the best dreams. My friends were all around me and I was getting married (: It was fantastic.

SO FRIGGEN CALM.

It's worn off by now. The bottle is in my car. It made me really tired when I woke up in the morning. I could have slept for like 4 more hours.

I really want it to be spring break.
And summer so I can go to GA.
I did my scholarship things.
Now I'm waiting. If I don't get either of the scholarships I applied for, I'll go to school in the spring. I need to work A LOT to save up the money for college. I'm hoping my parents have secretly made a savings account and put money in it every month for me so I don't have to pay for college. Yeah right. WHAT EVEZIES.


I like clicking "next" up on the dashboard and seeing other peeps blogs. Most of them are young mom's that post pictures up of their new born and talk about it growing and shit. Some are in spanish. Some are art (those are my favorite)


School gets out in 15 minutes.


I can't wait to get my septum pierced. I had to sit in the big gym with kids getting their blood drawn and donated to make sure they didn't pass out. I would pass out fa show if I had to give a pint of blood. YOU ONLY HAVE 8 PINTS, AHHHHH. You're all fucking sick. Pint of blood, dear Christ. I feel like sitting there being drained for 30 minutes would fucking hurt, and SUCK way bad, compared to a septum piercing for 2 seconds. Point being, I'm not sure I can wait till July to get the piercing. I really just want to go when I turn 18 in april. ): I have little to no patience whatsoever.

And that's why I start crying when I don't know how to use macs. Stupid fuckers. MICROSOFT > APPLE. Suck it Steve (blow) Jobs.

I sent one of my bikini tops back to victorias secret. It was too large. It was strapless and I don't want that thang sliding down while I'm out there in the ocean. Naw mean?

yeah, okay, bai.