YAY

I got my laptop back and I'm on break for an hour so I'm currently sitting on my bed in my bra and a thong with the fan on. It's...what, 95 degrees outside? How the fuck am I going to survive Georgia? I know it's super hot, but it's humid too. ROFL I just want to get brown. I want to see Davis waiting for me at the bottom of the escalator and be like WHOA BBY GURL and throw me over his shoulder and think I look xFYNEx.

I got direct deposit so when I come back I'll be all good. And my mom is going to cash my last check before GA and send it to me so I can have like an extra $200 with me. Soooo stoked. I think it's so funny how Jeze can't believe all the food is free. All ALL the food is freezee.

I just took $80 out of my savings account to pay my dad so he can figure out my ticket. I don't want to have anything waiting for me when I come back. I want to get everything squared away in case this is a trick and they are sending me to C.A.R.E. outpatient program in Florida. This way, I can just say, "Yes, I'll go." and not have to worry about my car payments or anything. I don't want to put the pressure on my parents when they are at the Betty Ford Center to learn how to deal with an addict.

I'm living in a fantasy world. I need to Q U I T.



Most definitely coming back.
I'm reading into this too much, why am I letting this bug me? I trust Davis. I don't know her, so maybe I don't trust her, but I trust Davis and it takes two to tango. Unless you're a girl. Then you get raped. But the fact of the matter is, I don't need to worry. I'll be gone for 3 weeks and they'll just be hanging out and she'll be there, consuming all his free time. No biggie, I'm not gonna stop it. But if any of my tampons are missing from his bathroom, I'm gonna be pissed. Those are 'spensive! I just am excited to meet her and when she sees my boobs are bigger, BAM! Instant intimidation. Just like how Davis flaunts his huge penis and men cower at the sight of the flag pole he calls a penis. ROFL. Ah..... I hope this paycheck is big.

And yes, I had to google "how to screenshot on a mac"
command + shift + 3 = whole screen
command + shift + 4 = select screen
And that's all I needed so that's all I remember.
I want a second job.
I've been working at RR for 3 months less than Tina and she get's 25-30 hours a week and I get 14? She says it's a matter of seniority and I think she needs to shut up.
Am I not a good worker? I'd say I'm an ace. I know the servers, I know what they can handle, I know rotation, I catch Tina fucking up A LOT and she tells me where to go and OBVIOUSLY that's not the ideal place on rotation so I have to fix it behind her back. And I think if I'm doing that to the "top host" then that's crap.
I dunno, it would be nice to work at least 20-24 hours a week like Alexis usually does. Alexis, Tina and I have been there for a long ass time and out of the 3, I get fucked. A lot. Jeze, you don't count cause you live in Tooele and you DO get a decent amount of hours for how far away you live. I live 5 minutes away. I do menu tours. So what? What is it? Whatever, I just ranted and I don't feel better. Hilary, if you're reading this, just ignore me cause I know you're doing the best you can and we have a lot of hostesses and all that. I know, I understand, I just am frustrated. Nothing to do with you.
I'm going to go E A T !