frustrated.

I've been SO frustrated at everyone lately.
My mother in particular.
My usual cerfew is 11pm.
12 on weekends, 10pm when I'm with Manda and Angie and Bands and everyone else with tattoos or gauges.

I canceled my modeling thing because I'd rather go to a show. Is that bad? I don't care either way because being with friends is funner than some stuck up bitches telling you you're not good enough. I'm going to this show with Zach. I knew when I approached her she'd say no, and she said, "only if Zach will go with you." I knew she'd say this, so I had already made plans with him to take me. +1 me when I said, "I know, he's already coming with me."

So good job me for being prepared.

And then, lately my parents have been pressuring me to get off the 24th to go with them to bear lake....JOY! -_- I could NOT get this day off because everyone else got it off and SOMEONE had to work. It's not like I didn't want to get it off, I did, but it wasn't an option. So after some switching, I got the best shift I could get. I got the shift that would get me off as early as possible so maybe I could go up there for at least one night. APPARENTLY that's not good enough. They KEEP pushing me to get it all the way off and I keep saying, "That's IMPOSSIBLE. I cannot do it and I'd like to keep a source of steady income, kthx." So they keep making me feel bad...saying, "oh, too bad you didn't get it off because now the whole family can't go." And that's bullshit because they can TOTALLY leave me here. I'm not going to have a party or host some show in my basement. I'll be with Hannah all weekend, that's all. But oh no, the 17 year old needs a babysitter. So they recommend me staying at Hannahs dads house. I agree and say, "Perfect!" and all is well until I say, "On the 24th is Angies birthday party and Hannah, and Mike and Becca and Connor and Taylor and Amiee and Austin etc. are going to be there! And it's gonna be so fun!" and she says, "Well, nevermind, you cannot go."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm not comfortable. And if Hannah's gonna go, then you're gonna wanna go and I won't let you, so I'll have to stay here which means the whole family is going to stay here."
Thus, making me feel like shit.
So I kind of get my opinions in and say, "But nothing bad is going to happen, like none of us drink..."
"Well, Tabitha, unless you want me driving you out there and walking you to the door, it's NOT happening."
"Mom! That's totally fine! I want you to drive me out there, I have nothing to hide.." That pissed her off that she didn't win, so she hits me with, "Oh, no then, I still don't want you going and we're NOT discussing it."

She's really unfair sometimes. Angie is one of my best friends.
And I was like, "I'm going to a show and Jake and Davis and everyone is going to be there."
"WHEN DID YOU START BEING FRIENDS WITH THEM?"
and she said the same thing about Becca and Angie and Mike and everyone.
What she doesn't realize is that I have tons of friends, and just because I'm with Taylor and Zach 24/7 doesn't mean I cut all ties.
I WANT to keep my friendships, but she's making it really hard.


Whatever. I just want Hannah to come out. And meet Bradleh. (rofl)
I hope things work out between them, I think they'd look sweet together. (:

Mattybro is still a little bitch. I don't give a damn.

Guh...
Brazilian wax on thursday....I'm WAY excited.