Day 6:

Am I still sick?
Yes [x]
No [ ]
Wish I wasn't [xxx]
Grr, I worked last night at my Red Robin job. I made $16 dollars in tips. I like working there, it's a job I suppose. I'm glad I have one considering the economy atm.
I'm kind of agitated. If you can take your habit down to once a month, what's the point? Can't you just NOT do it at all? Save us all the hurt? You can't expect to do something that you know would hurt many of your friends and play the dumb card and not expect consequences. You can't get everything you want. And agreeing to get your edge in with "once a month" is just an example of how stubborn you are that you have to get that little toe in the door to let us know the big man you are. But it's all about you, right? Who cares about your friends, right? Have some common sense about things. You knew this would happen, don't be so caught off guard. God knows I am. And you're not a big man. You're a boy. You're a boy who does what everybody tells you. I have every right to be upset at you, and you're a boy who won't talk to me. Talk to all your friends about how you feel and have them tell me how you feel. Don't talk to me, the one you hurt the most. You're making yourself look like a fool. No, you're making yourself look like a god damned tool. I'm not sorry. I'm the consequence. There is no gray area with me right now. It's black or white, you're gonna be my friend or not. I wouldn't give a damn if this were over telling a secret or some shit like that. But this is over something that hits really close to home with me. That you and I have talked about in depth. And you chose it. I'm walking left and you're walking right.
Don't even THINK that bringing up other people is going to make your points valid. You had no idea how I felt, what I did, or what the situation was. Yeah, last time this happened to me I was really sad. I was really betrayed. I was hurt. Do you think i'm not right now? Because that couldn't be more false. I'm every negative feeling known to man right now. But fuck me, right? Get over it. Did I get over it last time? Yeah, months later. I was really mad, and I am really mad at you as well and I need time for that to subside or else you're gonna get no where. I'm xpissedx for the lie, especially this one, where you looked at me in my face and said in a calm voice, "Tabby, our friendship means more to me than drugs and that stuff, I wouldn't do that to you." Then tell me, why did you do them with the last person that fucked me over? Hm? You're a liar and you don't give a fuck.
That's not a friend to me.